If I talk real slowly, if I try real hard to make my point here, that you have my heart. Here I go. I'll tell you what you already know. Here I go. I'll tell you what you already know. If you love me, with all of your heart. If you love me, I'll  make you a star in my universe. You'll never have to go to work, you'll spend every day shining your light my way.

mine

Oh HELLO I forgot about you for a little while. I'm still here. I neglected this for a while because I'm just a fucking lazy bitch and refuse to finish things I start. Okay. So. Searching for inspiration aaaaand here are a few things that just popped into my befuddled head.

messy

Death of Marat

Jacques Louis David

abyss

falling deep into winter. cold. bed is like a fortress of safe thinking. had a dream about time machines.

waves are falling on your head

ball feather

On

I am feeling things!!!!

Guy De Maupassant

Le Parure
She was one of those charming, pretty young women who seem to have been born by some cruel quirk of fate into quite the wrong social rank: in this instance, the minor bureaucracy. She had no dowry and no expectations, and it was therefore unlikely that any rich or distinguished gentleman would get to know her, understand, or love her, still less make her his wife.

location location

To begin shooting in less than a week. I have completely expurgated, scrubbed, scraped and disinfected my entire room so that it resembles a place of fruitless, desolate happenings. Athough the floor will be covered with the pages of old books, the walls remain white and the bed remains empty.

Chris Jordan, 2008

Skull With Cigarette, 2007

Tell them it's art

OH!

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

— Marilyn Monroe.

amaze

Hermit

I have picked a rather silly time to begin constructing this blog. So..much..work... not...getting..done... Why do we place ourselves under so much pressure? How do we end up in these dire situations where our eyes become telepathically glued to a computer screen for a good part of the night, striving, struggling, slowly dying in an endeavour to type 1000 words on a highly outdated review of 'Emma' that was written by a man with the name 'Reginald'.
That overwhelming sense of dread that is the undying cause of procrastination. Oh the joys of year 12. Pretending you don't care, pretending you do care, endless cups of black coffee in a cardboard cup and a social life that swings between drunken outbursts and solitary confinement. And this is all for the benefit of our future? That said, I refuse to end this blog with a rhetorical question. So instead I will leave you with the one and only statement that makes any sense to me: Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about. At least Oscar knew his shit.

Film - "Luna"

This is the story of a young woman named Luna. Not defined by any particular age. Suffers from schizophrenia and consequently must face the devastating social isolation, hallucinations and depression which are all induced by this illness. “Luna” is set in an internal world, timeless and placeless, and shuffles through reality and nightmare. We are introduced into the film by narration from controversial philosopher Terence McKenna, who blatantly condemns society’s fear of madness... Stay tuned.

List of Happy's - Updated!

-Really big dresses
-Little hats
-the sound of Michael Jackson on vinyl
-moon
-harmonica
-big baggy acid-wash jeans
-water-colours
-soup
-mama
-tea and toast
-smiley people
-Melbourne
-red shoes
-massive attack
-doona
-travel
-long hair
-Rain
-Crisp clean sheets
-Candles
-Red lipstick
- pinky/orange highlighter
- jazz
-old pianos
-extra long matches
-vice magazine
-coconut milk
-nag champa
-Oscar Wilde
-water
-Chad
-Green tea
-avocado
-regina spektor on a cold Saturday night
-coats
-french film
-noir
-yoga
-Buddah
-20 dollar notes
-nature boy
-free
-love
-romance
-afternoon naps
-Spain
-glitter
-massages
-nice little dresses
- nice little tea cups
-laughing
-fidelity
-leaping in the deep end
-Canadian coat
-rings
-chicken wraps
-being underwater
-killer tans
-being drunk
-layers
-being warm
-sneezing
-huge fry-ups
-mangoes
-fire place
-smell of chimney smoke
-rainforests
-wobble
-piercings
-clean hair
-CocoRosie
-loose change
-gold coins
-indian takeaway
-beach
-very hot days
-very cold days
-fog
-cheese in general
-my cat
-people touching me
-wish-bone chain
-Macca's runs
-sex
-guitar
-pink floyd
-scarves
-live music
-moshing
-St. Kilda
-roast dinner
-spooning
-spooning with dog
- my bed
- sleep in general
- Paris
-beauty treatments
-money
-screaming
-performing
-being cheesy
-dance
-swearing
-fuck
-yoga
-baths
-making someone's day
-showers before bed
-Rocky Horror Picture Show
- beer
-allnighters
-the ocean
-long train trips
-baby hair
-late night indian
-hugs
-farms
-vegemite
-sunset light
-skating
-making music
-steam
-rain on tin roof
-friday afternoon literature
-energy
-fairies
-floating
-kisses
-fish and chips
-making film
-oversized coats
-reggae
-sitting on the heater vent
-furr
-folk
-rocking
-fire
-vans
-trying to suppress laughter
-Bonjah
-tea before bed
-swaying
-psychedelic
-animal collective
-squeeze
-beach hair
-crunchy apples
-Miles Davis
(not finished)

Everybody Knows This Is Nowhere

Ryan Mcginely, various works.

Love, love is a verb

Love is a doing word. I'd do it all again. But my emotional response lacks the intensity I am used to and familiar with as he has somehow numbed my mind. I want to tell him, but I have confused him too much already. I detest and despise this restrictionn, trains of thought echo in my mind. Distant. Burning bulb has gone flat now. Trembling man, there is so much you don't know about me and someday I will tell you everything.